Where I'm at now

When ever we go through a crisis I believe we all go through different phases, denial, anger, bartering, grief and acceptance. I have gone through just about all of these and now I'm in the acceptance stage. I'm so glad I'm here now. For awhile I was in the anger stage and that wasn't a good place at all. Unfortunately I didn't handle myself very well either which I'm not very proud of. Thank goodness we have a great big God who loves to forgive. Though I'm still going through some grief and sorrow and know that I will for awhile, I'm also to the place where I'm able to accept the situation for what it is. And I'm thankful for this because now I'm able to truly surrender. I know that I'm not in control and that it's not my will but His. This has been a long journey and one that has nearly driven me right to the edge of insanity. I'm not saying I'm completely stress free. Oh hardly! I have so much to do and it is hard not knowing where we are headed to or how our life will end up in the next 3 weeks after we have to leave the home we are living in now. But it is nice to know that God is the one spinning this world after all and He does have something planned out for us. He really does.